Crossroads
It's strange...today, prolly right after lunch or so, I felt...happy. Happy like even if there are things going on in my life right now that freak me out, and things going on that I SHOULDN'T be happy about, I felt like I was at peace with the world, and there was nothing I could ever need or want that I didn't already have. It was a moment of contentment, of bliss, I guess.
It's gone now, though, haha, but it's nice to know that feelings like that do take over you from time to time and put a smile on your face.
Life update: I moved in to the new place last Friday, and my brothers and my Dad are now in Vietnam. My Mom flies out on Sunday morning [tomorrow! :(] and at long last, I will be alone in the house. For a few months, at least. My Mom might come back to visit like in November or something and I am definitely looking forward to that because, well hell, I will miss my morning sessions with my mom where we just talk and read the newspaper, etc. Quiet times, but times that can certainly be missed. I miss my brothers already, and every time I hear a song that they used to play a lot around the house (ie. Toby Lightman), I think about them. Funny, I've been reading my high school yearbook again. I feel like I'm back to that point in time where I was away from my family for an extended period of time the first time: going to college.
But I dunno...it's gonna be weird, but I'm sure I'll be able to handle it. It's all about getting used to things, I suppose. I just hope the aloneness of it all doesn't get to me that much. But then, that's what friends are there for, right? :)
Friends, I NEED YOU!!! hehe.
To end, a song from the band that rules all. :)
why can you read me like no one else?
I hide behind these words
but I'm coming out
I wish I kept them behind my tongue
I hide behind these words
but I'm coming out
put your hand between
an aching head and an aching world
we'll make them so jealous
we'll make them hate us
an aching head and an aching world
we'll make them so jealous
we'll make them so jealous
all the ways you make my stomach turn
and all the long drives
with my friends blur
and I wish I kept them inside my mind
I hide behind these words
and think of all the places
where you've been lost
and then found...out
in between my sheets
in between the rights and the wrongs
put your hand between
an aching head and an aching world
we'll make them so jealous
we'll make them hate us
aching head and an aching world
think of all the places
where you've been lost and found...out
-"It's Not A Side Effect Of The Cocaine. I Am Thinking It Must Be Love," Fall Out Boy
It's gone now, though, haha, but it's nice to know that feelings like that do take over you from time to time and put a smile on your face.
Life update: I moved in to the new place last Friday, and my brothers and my Dad are now in Vietnam. My Mom flies out on Sunday morning [tomorrow! :(] and at long last, I will be alone in the house. For a few months, at least. My Mom might come back to visit like in November or something and I am definitely looking forward to that because, well hell, I will miss my morning sessions with my mom where we just talk and read the newspaper, etc. Quiet times, but times that can certainly be missed. I miss my brothers already, and every time I hear a song that they used to play a lot around the house (ie. Toby Lightman), I think about them. Funny, I've been reading my high school yearbook again. I feel like I'm back to that point in time where I was away from my family for an extended period of time the first time: going to college.
But I dunno...it's gonna be weird, but I'm sure I'll be able to handle it. It's all about getting used to things, I suppose. I just hope the aloneness of it all doesn't get to me that much. But then, that's what friends are there for, right? :)
Friends, I NEED YOU!!! hehe.
To end, a song from the band that rules all. :)
why can you read me like no one else?
I hide behind these words
but I'm coming out
I wish I kept them behind my tongue
I hide behind these words
but I'm coming out
put your hand between
an aching head and an aching world
we'll make them so jealous
we'll make them hate us
an aching head and an aching world
we'll make them so jealous
we'll make them so jealous
all the ways you make my stomach turn
and all the long drives
with my friends blur
and I wish I kept them inside my mind
I hide behind these words
and think of all the places
where you've been lost
and then found...out
in between my sheets
in between the rights and the wrongs
put your hand between
an aching head and an aching world
we'll make them so jealous
we'll make them hate us
aching head and an aching world
think of all the places
where you've been lost and found...out
-"It's Not A Side Effect Of The Cocaine. I Am Thinking It Must Be Love," Fall Out Boy
posted by csfilsm at 5:34 AM
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You know what?
I think you'll do just fine.
Just fine.
Hi Sandy!
Yeah, I do think things will turn out just fine. :) Like I said, it's just a matter of getting used to things.
My first weekend alone wasn't so bad so...:p
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