Born To Make You Happy

This is harder than I thought, the "getting over you" part.

Some days, I am fine, like last weekend I thought I was totally fine, and I was totally recovering, and then a day like yesterday hit me, and I realized that there is a huge part of me that misses you so much and still wants to be with you and agonizes because we haven't seen each other in what feels like forever now. A part of me knows that it is time to move on, but another part doesn't want to, cannot, and is desperate to fight to keep everything alive. I am struggling with myself so much right now, and the funny thing is, you're prolly the best person in the world who can help me through it. Ironic, isn't it, that you are both the cause of all of this, and yet I tell myself that you are the one who can help me the best. But then again maybe that's just my heart telling me it needs you there, and wants to get back together with you, despite how hard everything would be.

Some days, I wish we could just forget everything, you know? Forget the past, forget the present, forget the future, forget implications and ramifications, responsibilities, feelings, hidden meanings, and just...be together. Hang out, you know, talk, cuddle, enjoy each other's company with absolutely no strings attached. Yea, that would be so nice. We'd have a grand old time, I feel.

I'm totally feeling Britney Spears' "Born To Make You Happy" right now. Yea, she's a totally trashy ho, but there is just something about that song that reverberates within me.

I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy
cuz your the only one within my heart
I was born to make you happy
always and forever you and me
thats the way our life should be
I don't know how to live without your love
I was born to make you happy

I hope everything is going well with you right now. I hope you are happy, and that everything in your world is in harmony.

Some days are better than others, but today, I just miss you so damn much.